“Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” Exodus 4:10
At this point in our journey, we have identity, community, healthy values, direction, purpose, gifts, and it looks like we’re ready to embark on living the abundant life Jesus wants us to have. But there’s still this smarmy, oily voice that asks, “Are you sure you’re cut out for this?” I imagine it was the same voice that spoke to Moses, when after he met God through the burning bush, after God gave His mandate and many signs and answers for Moses to give the people, that reminded him of his stutter. “YOU are going to speak to Pharoah?” it asked, reminding him how he couldn’t even ask for a cup of water without having to concentrate. The sadness Moses must have felt, and crushing fear of ridicule from past experiences, which caused him to reject his calling, saying, “If this is important, you don’t want to send me. I’m not good at this. Please send someone else.”
Scripture goes on to say the Lord first told Moses He was going to be with him, and that he would give him the words to say, and when Moses rejected Him outright, gave him a helper, but still called Moses to go. I love this, because I am someone who disqualifies myself constantly. “I’m not ready for this,” is usually my excuse. This account tells me that for all of our maneuvering and attempting to get away, showing God all the reasons why we can’t do what He’s imprinted into our very souls to accomplish, we cannot convince Him that we are unworthy of or incapable of carrying out our calling. Today, we open our insecurity, and places we get most attacked by the enemy and ask the Father for strength.
Reflection
Is there something God has called you to accomplish that you feel you just can’t?
Are you willing to put your trust in His reasoning, His calling of YOU and His wisdom concerning the task?
Prayer
Father, I thank you that it is not by my might, nor by power, but by Your Spirit that I am able to accomplish everything you give me to do. I place my trust in Your word that says You are faithful to complete the good work You have begun in me, and that anything I perceive as that which would exclude me from your good work is a lie. Give me the strength to stand against the enemy when he attacks in this tender place that makes me so afraid that I just want to run away. Thank you for equipping the called, as we are called, and for Your relentless love that doesn’t let us disqualify ourselves from your goodness. Amen
